well…. i did it!
it is hard to believe that i actually have done 13.1 miles.
but it's TRUE!!
whoop whoop!
let me recap the weekend as it went down.
on friday, mr. duerksen left with four of my kids for a bball tournament out of town.
so to begin my girls weekend i got a full 24 hours ALONE.
um…yeah…that rocked!
then…craig accidentally took my car keys so i couldn't even leave my house and you know what?
it was such a blessing.
i HAD to stay home and just be alone.
ahhhhhh.
i did laundry, cleaned the chicken's box and watched crazy stupid, Love.
(i love that movie!)
:)
saturday morning i put on my favorite shirt to bring good vibes my way…. ha!
my friends picked me up since i had no car.
and we took off for our road trip!
as usual… talk talk talk all the way there.
we picked up our packets with our bib inside it and shopped the expo a little.
i bought sporty sunglasses…you know i needed them after all that fashion wear all winter.
i hate the way the sport sunglasses look.
so much.
but i can wear them with my hat so it was needed.
they had this wall with the names of all of the people who died in the OKC bombing.
the people the race was honoring.
the first 168 bib numbers were given to them.
it was emotional.
one of the best parts of marathon training is getting "CARB LOAD" the week of the race.
and believe me… i did.
we went back to our hotel and right to bed.
our wake up time was 4:00 AM.
oy veh.
i slept terrible as expected and leaped out of bed at the alarm.
my roommate was pretty surprised by that.
🙂
we geared up with all our running stuff…gummy energy chews, wipes, kleenex, money (? we didn't know??), body glide, hair ties, hats, sunglasses, our bib numbers, ipods, phones and layers.
we waited in the cool air for 35 minutes for the "every 15 minutes" shuttle
that was suppised to be there at 4:30.
blah.
then headed to a sunrise service at The Survivor Tree.
again… emotional.
it's hard to see but that is because it was completely dark outside…it was 5:30 AM.
we sang worship songs… Bless the Lord Oh My Soul and Amazing Grace were too hard to even sing.
i was too choked up.
i just closed my eyes and listened.
the pastor read from Jesus Calling and it was just so appropriate.
we made a stop at gear check.
(use gear check if you do a race… super easy and convenient)
we made one last pit stop… porta potties….gross.
then we found our pace group and waited.
with 10,000 other people.
they had 168 seconds of silence for those who died in OKC.
i cried.
and prayed.
i was getting VERY nervous with all the unknowns…
can i do this? am i safe? what if i get hurt? what if i fall?
you know… all that stuff that Satan loves to put in your mind when big things are happening.
i texted craig and kimberlee.
i needed one last boost of love before i took off.
they gave it to me.
:)
some of my friends are conscience of their time when they run.
these were free tattoos you could put on to know your pace.
i was not remotely interested.
i can only do what i can do at that moment.
not anyone else's time.
the gun went off and we stood still for a looooong time because we were SO far back in the line
14 minutes after the gun went off we crossed the start line and began our first half marathon!
there was loud music.
people in their driveways all along the way.
some had water… some had beer…. donuts… signs… all SO SWEET!
then the hills began.
geez louise.
there were so many hills on this course.
we didn't train for that.
but we did it.
i mean come on….LOOK AT THAT HILL!!!
and that wasn't even the bad hill that everyone told us about.
the sun was coming up as we came through this tunnel.
it was beautiful light…
i wished i had my big camera.
(and that i was not running… ha)
firefighters were all through the race.
which made me tear up every time we came up on them.
they were sweating like crazy walking with all that gear on…
what amazing men!
we ran right past the capital building.
that was really cool.
and the sun was just behind it… GORGEOUS.
we hit the halfway mark and decided on taking a picture.
try # 1
try #2
we were honestly smiling.
i repeated to myself so many times
"God's spirit is with you"
"present your body as worship"
and "Glorify God with your body"
i made it 9.5 miles before walking!!
that is AMAZING.
i had never run more than 8 miles before that… so i had my personal best that day.
around mile 11 i was feeling a little delirious.
and i said to my friend "have you seen Taledega Nights?"
and i quoted this line.
i know i know.
ricky bobby and carl naughton jr. are complete blasphermors through that entire movie.
but… i quoted it because as i was dragging and weak..
i said "well….i am picturing my jesus in running shorts and nike frees…running beside me"
we giggled a bit and decided Jesus probably would have been way faster than me.
i walked a bit, ran a bit, walked a bit
and then at mile 12 an older man on the sides controlling traffic, looking like morgan freeman,
leaned in towards me and did a quiet clapping and said quietly
"let's go. let's go. run. you can do it. let's go"
and it was so quiet that i just listened to him.
i ran.
and suddenly there was the finish line way up ahead!!
i turned to my friend and said "i am so glad you made me do this! THANK YOU so much!"
i meant it.
it was such an awesome morning!
i took out my headphones and took it all in.
people were all cheering and screaming for the runners.
it was so cool.
big races are such a positive atmosphere!
every runner feels like a rockstar.
and there i was.
done.
THIRTEEN MILES.
2:46:48
it's not fast but i don't care one single bit.
i did it.
(nice glasses…..)
after we caught our breath, regrouped, ate oranges, bagels and bananas to refuel,
we headed to the memorial again.
MANY people ran for those they lost in the OKC bombing.
the memorial had all kinds of sites like this.
we made it to the shuttles.
i was beginning to feel sick.
then i got sick.
and i was miserable.
my body was in full-on-freak-out mode.
it was not pretty.
my friends let me sleep for awhile and after an hour and a half i was better.
i rallied.
i ate a quick lunch and then it was time for massage.
it's what we do.
we run hard and then we go to the spa.
the best way to run a race.
period.
then dinner and a DELICIOUS drink to celebrate!
i am so proud of all of us!!
we trained hard for months.
with 15 kids between the four of us…and all of our jobs…and busy lives…
we did it.
i don't know if i will ever do it again….
but i can always say that I DID IT!!!
and i think you should train and do it too.
🙂
Andrea@KnittyBitties - I loved reading this Meg because one week from today I’ll be running my first half. My stomach already lurches if I think too much on it, but it’s going to be amazing and great and fun and I can’t wait. I did 10 miles yesterday and felt really good, so 13.1 should be cake, right?!?! 😀
Congratulations on training and following through!
XOXO,
Andrea
tara - oh how i remember the half that i ran in ATL…..
crazy awesome and crazy hard.
i laughed when i read that you imagined jesus running beside you in shorts and nike frees. i am sure he was there beside you..i need to quit imagining him in a white robe and try your imagination.
hilarious.
Carrie - This made me cry. So proud of you.
I am part of a full/half/5K organizing committee as part of my job ans runners never cease to impress me. Love their spirit and determination and sense of humor. If I didn’t have fibro I think I would try it. But I’m just not tough enough!
Momofthree - Great job! I am training for my first half marathon at Niagara Falls in June and watching as you trained has been inspiring:)
Did you talk anywhere on the blog about your running playlist? On my shorter runs I have been happy with no music but now for the longer distances I really think I would like to have some music to help me along. I’d love to hear what you were listening to!
Rachel - Congratulations Meg…you are awesome!
Katherine @ Grass Stains - Had to add my congratulations and tell you how proud I am of you for running your first half, Meg! (And even if you never do it again, it’s something to be incredibly proud of!) 🙂 Way to go!!
Lora - I teared up many times reading your post. Congrats to you!! I especially love the part about the Morgan Freeman man cheering you on. That’s so great! Since he played God maybe that was God’s way of cheering you on 🙂
I’ve been to the OKC bombing sight and walked around the fence with all the memorials stuck in it. It was completely silent. I’ve never felt anything like that before. It was very emotional.
Yay for you!
Leslie - As I read that I felt so proud of you! I read your blog all the time and you are such an encouragement to me! 🙂 How excited to ACTUALLY do it!!
Jenn - Wow! I’m sitting here crying. You may or may not know this, but you ran for your kids, your husband, those that died that horrible day, those that died in Boston another horrible day, those that were hurt, you ran for those of us that read your blog and you ran for you! I’m so proud of you! You rock! And Jesus was with you in running shorts and Nike frees and he’s proud of you too!
Alicia @ La Famille - CONGRATS!!!!!
I’ve run four halves…two were to get me back into shape after babies. I’ll have to start thinking about another now! It is SUCH a rush every time. SO SO worth it!!
Congrats again!!!
Andrea T - I havent been by to read in awhile…busy, back to work. something made me drop by. i am so glad i did. i am wiping away the tears. just the motivation i needed! CONGRATS!!!!!!! what an amazing accomplishment!
Heather R. - RoCk oN!!! You should be so proud of yourself! Great job!
Krista - So proud of you MEG!!!!! Thank you for sharing!
P.S. Your pace is just fine 🙂
I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to run/ walk for nearly 3 hours but I’m working on it!!
denise@victory rd. - meg, tearing up.
i just love every bit of this- even the photos that don’t do the reality justice.
i love your honesty.
the beginning the day in worship, and continuing in worship as you ran (and as you blogged).
i related to the not sleeping, and jumping up at the alarm, and to the texting for one more dose of love. praise God for those relationships that nourish us.
and i loved that you all ran for okc.
but my FAVORITE part (when i really teared up) was when “morgan freeman” spurred you on. makes me think of the Spirit nudging you so you finish well (which from my experience if more for my good, than God’s).
and WOOT WOOT!
maybe someday i’ll join you and run my own 1/2 (yikes).
amanda d - Congratulations! Smiled through the whole post … “God’s spirit is with you”
“present your body as worship”, and “Glorify God with your body” – made me teary. I’m going to say it when I’m on the treadmill b/c I always feel like I’m dying when I’m running. 😉
Lori Austin - This post made me BAWL!!
So proud of you.
That’s all (heading for tissue). 🙂
Lisa - I’m so sorry you got sick! ugh! I have done 2 half marathons and both times I got totally sick after too. Not sure why that is cause all through my training I felt great! So glad you did it and had a great time. 🙂
Talia - Congratulations! You ROCK girl! Well done!
Amy - Beautiful and inspiring, Meg! I will never run but I LOVE the enthusiasm my running friends have 🙂 You did it!!!!
Mindy W - Well, I’m proud of you. Just plain bursting my buttons proud of you.
Kimberly Parker - My cousin ran in the same race! I’m proud of you both!
beth larson - Meg…I am smiling and crying and so happy for you! What an amazing accomplishment Girl! My body really and truly was not made to run- but it would be my proudest accomplishment if I could ever do one. : )
Proud of you and for you!
p.s. I ordered one of your prints and framed it for my BFF for her birthday and she loved it soooo much! It’s the sunflower with the words I am here to serve with JOY. It’s so her- xo
a - Awesome!
I ran my first (of two) half marathons a couple of years ago and I was so proud of myself. I called my dad and told him I had finished and my time and he said “Isn’t that usually the time for a full marathon?”
Jill - Congratulations! It’s been fun to read about your journey on your blog.
~ A fellow runner and fan in San Diego
Valerie @ Chateau a la mode - Meg, can I just say I am so, so proud of you. I wish I knew you in real life to give you a huge hug. You rock girlie. May I also take a minute to let you know my husband is a firefighter and I got a tear in my eye with the photo of the firefighters. They truly are heros. They really are men and women who would lay down their lives for others and not think twice about it. xo
Tracy Fisher - i am so very proud of you! -tracy fisher
Katey - Your post brought tears to my eyes several times. Wow. So powerful. I’m glad you did it. Thanks for sharing your awesome adventure. I loved reading about it and seeing your pictures. God is Good.
Cari - This had me in tears. For one, I am originally from Oklahoma. Things like bombings always seem so much more “real” when they happen in your home. Secondly, I am freaking OUT about attempting my first 5K next week. Freaking.Out. I have convinced myself I’m just a big girl and it’s okay if I walk a lot of it. I need to change my attitude. Thirdly, so proud of you for reaching your goal! What an accomplishment!! Way to go!!! Thank you for letting us “run” this journey with you.
Debbie Hargadon - What a great recap and nice post. Thanks for all that you share!
Rebekah - GO MEG! You made me cry, and almost — ALMOST — made me want to run. Not quite. But almost. 🙂 Way to go!
shiela - believe me….once you start doing some kind of marathon, you are hooked for the rest of your life! keep running & keep inspiring sssso many gazillions of people around you…way to go! too many lives are waiting to be touched by your example. every sweat/trials/hills…they are all good & will make you stronger. to God be all the glory! He is the one that allowed you to accomplish more than you could ever imagine.
Wendy - You are such a motivator! I want to do this. thanks for posting about it. I love the Taledago Nights quote. So funny!
Tracy - Congratulations, Meg, to you and your friends! YOU ROCK!! so inspiring.
Robin Canter - I don’t know you but feel so happy for you and am so glad you ran this race and had such a positive experience. Pretty darn good girl.
Laura - Meg, You’re a ROCK STAR!
Suzanne - So. Stinkin’. Awesome. Period.
Cathy - Ok.. you made me cry.. I am so happy for you.. maybe that little guy was your running angel.. only you could see/hear him.. say run… now I have a quote. Run Sally Run.. Dick and Jane. I would love to try a half.. considering I don’t RUN to start with that would be a big thing..
Janelle - Oh you made me teary eyed! Thanks for the inspiration…I think you’re right, I can do it too 🙂 Any tips for how to start??? Did you do Couch Potato to 5K? Number of days per week?? Amount of time spent running? Would love to know how you got started when you get a chance!
nora - Congratulations! But I must say – you did not run 13 miles, you RAN 13.1 MILES! That .1 counts!!!
Thank you for the awesome recap. What a wonderful race.
mary liz cawley - Love this post … brought tears to my eyes the whole way through. Congrats on 13.1 … you rock. I especially loved the “Morgan Freeman” man quietly cheering you on … LOVE HIM
kathy - And you trained through a horrible winter-that is the most impressive part to me! I loved the reading from Jesus Calling. Thanks for passing on some inspiration 🙂
Hannah - CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so so awesome! most of my friends are BIG runners…so i signed up for a half last year…just so i could be in on the girls trip! ha! i wasn’t fast…but you can’t explain the feeling of accomplishment when you are done! not sure if i will ever do it again…but like you…i can say…i did it! love how you take pictures along the way!!! :):)
Gale - CONGRATS!!! SO proud for you – and I lived in Norman when that bombing happened. So sad and terrifying and something I will never forget. My Okie heart is so blessed to see those pictures and know you were part of it.
YOU ROCK, GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🙂
sallie - WooHoo! You did it! Congratulations! I’ve been following and checking in to see how you did! Amazing accomplishment! Wonderful words about your journey and race day! I love that you had the chance to worship before the race! You and your friends are an inspiration!
Leslie - WOW!! Congratulations to you and your friends – what a true accomplishment. I was teary when reading about the moments of silence and the pictures of the memorials. Thanks so much for the recap – glad you shared with all of us 🙂
Heather - This is so beautiful, Meg. You did it!!! What a moving experience. How awesome is that Morgan Freeman guy? So cool. One day when my baby is a bit older, I’ll get back to running. You’re my inspiration!!! 🙂
Terrie - What a great post Meg! I’m so proud of You! And the rest of your group too…Go Angie!!
How stinkin’ emotional…I’m not sure I would have made it…
Shoot I teared up just reading this and thinking about how emotional it would be.
What an accomplishment…with family, friends and God..we can do anything!
Praising Him for all your Blessings!!
Hugs!!
Jenni - Thanks for posting. I knew you were training but didn’t realize it was for the OKC run. I grew up there and was a senior in high school when the bombing happened. Now I live in California where no one quite gets the impact of what happened there. It was a nice surprise to see this today.
And way to go! You inspire me!
Jess in Chicagoland - Meg, congrats on finishing your first half marathon! Reading this post of yours was such a huge inspiration for me and I got chills as I read all about it 🙂 I’ve been on a running journey of my own for the last year and a half and am currently training for my first 5k (it’s on June 16, eeeeek, haha). I’m a little nervous, but I know I can do it! Thanks for sharing your experience… it is quite the wonderful accomplishment! <3
misty - I wish I would have known you were there! I would have LOVED to have met you!! {I’d rather meet my favorite bloggers than any celeb} My mother in law & her sister run marathons. They are so amazing. I would love to be able to run an entire marathon one day, or actually, even the 1/2 would be fantastic. Isn’t the memorial so moving? We went last year & I couldn’t hardly sit through the part where they play the phone calls. I still remember sitting my my math class & hearing what had happened… I was in 7th grade, but I remember it like it was yesterday.
So excited for you! What an awesome accomplishment!
jodie - You are amazing! So proud of you ans your friends. You are all an inspiration! !
Kate - so proud of you!
beki - Wow, Meg, that was powerful! You’re my hero 😉
Barbara - YAY MEG!! I’ve been checking here the last couple of days to see if you posted about the run….great job! So very happy for you!! Way to go!!
Mary - so rad!!!
what an amazing accomplishment!
xoxo
Jan B. - That was a great recap. Way to go! Very inspirational.
Linda - You are amazing and inspiring! Thank you!
Jenna - Tears! What a race to run … An amazing tribute. Congratulations!!
tonya - that pic of the firefighters totally did me in! so proud of you and your girlfriends for training so hard and accomplishing your goal!!!
Kathy - wow wow wow I am SO proud of you! I have been thinking about training for one of those but so on the fence … now you have me thinking even more about it … GREAT JOB!!!!
Heidi Durant - You did rock that! So awesome. Last month, a friend and I ran NINE 5ks. It was insane, but when I crossed the ninth and final finish line, I was so proud if myself and us! Loved your training posts and running attire. Moms can and will run!!
Lindsey - Way to go! What a great accomplishment!
Heather - I cried through this whole post. You inspire me. Craftily, Spiritually, as a Parent, Style-wise. You’re rockin it! 🙂 Good Job Meg!
Angela A - Congratulations Meg! Such an amazing accomplishment and amazing day. So thankful you had so many to cheer all of you on–even the Morgan Freeman dude!
Kristin S - Yea Meg, yea, yea, yea!!!
So proud of you!!!
After a year injured, I long to run again. I’m a run/walker and really do enjoy it and miss it – as do my growing thighs. I have hope of returning but am content if it isn’t God’s plan.
Maybe, someday, I’ll walk/run a half. I want to!
tinaehb3 - This brought tears to my eyes 🙂 This is definitely going on my list of must accomplish!!
Carrie - I am racewalking my first post second baby event on May 12. Prior to her I have 6 marathons and several halfs under my belt. She is almost 2 1/2 so it has been awhile and I am nervous. I racewalk and I look nerdy doing it, but I am evidently good at it. I wish my knees would let me run. I am hoping to keep a 12:15 pace, slower then what I used to do, realistic now I suppose. My husband against my getting back into this as it has involved some watching of the kiddos while I do my long training on the weekend. I have not shared that I already have a race picked out in September!!
Colleen - Congrats to you and your running friends! Quite an inspiration you are…maybe I will try for a 5K first! Well done.
jenny - You’re such an inspiration! Congratulations!!!
Amy K. - SO PROUD OF YOU… that you did it, but especially how you have spent the past week using the whole thing to glorify God!
Tiffany - God is so good….(then u say) ..All the time. I am very happy for you, this is an impressive accomplishment! Rockstar!
Hannah Lesley - There is nothing cooler than running a race. I am convinced of it. You should be so proud of yourself! I’m proud of you:)
ann - Congratulations Meg! I am so proud of you and being a runner myself, I know what hard work that was! Yea! Go you! Isn’t amazing that so much of our physical body has to do with our MIND! (Having God give you strength helps, too!!) Hugs, Ann in Park Ridge
Courtney - Congratulations! I got a little teary reading this too! I ran my one and only half a couple of years ago and it was amazing! My body freaked out afterward too and I felt horrible! I love the encouragement you got toward the end and how you kept yourself going! And super impressed that you ran that far before you walked! Super inspiring…thanks for sharing!
melodee - you are amazing! all of you girls are! congrats!!
Jeanelle - I just wept when I read what the older man said to you at mile 12…God is just the best. So glad you made it. You’re awesome.
Kelly - I’m getting emotional for you! I know what it means to mentally and physically do something you didn’t think you would ever be able to do! Such a HUGE accomplishment! Congratulations!
becky @ farmgirl paints - i am so proud of you meg. seriously running a marathon seems impossible to me…but YOU DID IT! rock star. love the mantra you said to yourself.
Connie - Congratulations!
Leann - Congratulations to you and your friends!!!! You are all AMAZING women in my book.
Rachel B. - I was tearing up reading your post! What an amazing opportunity! What an example of Philippians 4:13!!!
Mia - AMAZING! You are an inspiration to all of us who have never run a half marathon. Clearly, those runs in 17 degrees weather paid off!
Tiffany clark - GOOD FOR YOU! You’re so amazing! I’m so happy you did that for yourself! I didn’t realize how emotional it would be, but reading this post, now I get it. Wow.
Carol S. - Remember I hung up my running shoes after my first 5K….but am sooooo proud of you. Loved all the pics and stories. Adored Morgan Freeman’s encouragement at the end, and the Jesus in the tuxedo clip really made me laugh. Haven’t seen it but I need to memorize that line…cause I like my Jesus to party a little, too. Sigh, great work Meg, thanks for sharing the journey.
CathyC - Good for you Meg! That is super-awesome!!!!!!! You should be so proud!!!!!!! 🙂
Mary - Way proud of you! Big congrats!
Had to chuckle about Jesus in running shorts…I have a feeling he was smiling too!
Rach - Congrats! It must have been an amazing feeling of accomplishment!
chrissi - inspiring post. thank you, i loved it.
Anne - I’m so proud of you!!! Way. To. Go. And you look adorbs in those running glasses. Don’t tell yourself otherwise, cause its just not true! Congratulations to all of you.
kim - i’m so proud of you , meg.
this post made me choke up.
(which isn’t something that happens for me a lot).
picturing the morgan-freeman-lookalike quietly encouraging you made my throat swell up, and tears well up.
and the special sights at the memorial. the bibs.
so amazing.
i remember the day of the bombing, i was super young, and spent the whole day watching the news (unsupervised). i think it is incredibly special that you did this.
and you’re right. now you can always say you did it. 🙂
it’s a good feeling, isn’t it?
Lori H - Love this story Meg and I am so proud that you did it! And here I am, worried about an 8K with my lately-rebelling 50-year-old body. Haha.
tracy dickinson - way to go! my sis has done the okc half and it was pretty amazing. i am training for my first half in november! now you need to do a full…!!!!!
Stephanie - I’m totally wiping tears away. 🙂 how amazing for you! I love that you leaned on God and wanted to present your body a living sacrifice.
I lived in OK before the bombing. That memorial is so moving. I would love to go back.
I ruptured my Achilles’ tendon almost 2 years ago while on a run and it still bothers me. I don’t see a half marathon (or even a mile run! Lol) in my future.
Good for you! So glad to see the update!
Jenn - Meg, you made me tear up by the end of the post. I ran my first two half marathons last year and am so ready to do it again after reading about your experience. You did rock that half. Way to go!
Sabrina - Awww!! You DID IT! Nice work! 🙂
Melissa - So proud of you! Sounds like you did amazing and soaked it all in – perfect! Stinks you got sick afterwards.
tiffany gardner - YAY MEG!!! I was totally standing on a street in my neighborhood (by the beer guys) cheering you on! I kept telling my husband… I have to cheer on my blog girl… he said .. is that creepy??? Maybe… but I said I would be there and I was!! My hubby and oldest son ran the 5k. The run was awesome… the day was awesome … our city is awesome. So glad you came!!
Lynette - Great job, sounds like a pretty cool experience!
Lisa M. - So wonderful Meg!! I’ve been checking for this post all weekend and all day today 🙂 That is so awesome that you took pictures throughout the race to save those memories. I love your mantra “God’s spirit is with you….” Thanks for sharing. I ran a 5 mile race last fall and I had just started training in September. After about mile 3 I kept asking myself, “Why? Why am I doing this?” but then when I was done, I was so glad and I will probably do it again, but honestly? Give me a 3 mile run any day and I’m good 🙂
CONGRATULATIONS on reaching your goal!
Ashley E - Great job Meg!!! Sad I didn’t get to see you, but that’s life. 🙂 You should do the Route 66 1/2 in Tulsa this November…. 🙂
jamie - oh my gosh. i better hurry up and wipe my tears before my kids come down here and see me crying. what a beautiful recap of your race experience. i am so proud of you my imaginary friend! what an amazing accomplishment!
stephany @ home is what you make it - Nice work!
I refuse to run for longer than 1 hour at a time, so I train for 10k’s.
Maybe I’ll decide that I would like to run for longer than 1 hour at a time someday, but for now that is good.
Right now I am training for a 10k at the beginning of August…and it is in the park i run in all the time, so I can practice the route from my house!
Does anybody go for a run during Craft Weekend?
Sarah Wolfe - Awesome! Makes me want to do one too… eventually 🙂